I did a bit of listening to some of my favorite non-me produced music today (analyzing song structure if you must know), and I couldn't shake the feeling that I would never be able to live up to the achievements of those artists. My music could never be as moving, as complex (or as simple), as poignant, as
I read an interview with Stephin Merritt of The Magnetic Fields a while ago, where he mentioned that when he listens to his albums he only hears the flaws. I guess that's comforting in some ways. And really I know that this kind of insecurity has got to be a pretty normal thing when it comes to putting yourself "out there" creatively. I just wish I knew of a way to build up my music self-esteem. I wish I had a mentor who would tell me if I was on the right track. Sometimes I wish the music I make sounded more like the music I listen to, because at least I know that I like that! Oh, the struggles we face.
Not much fun without a little struggle though, right? And on that note, a clip of something new I'm working on. Take it as you will.